'I wanted to look good in the shower': Reality star admits steroid use was 'one of the biggest mistakes' of his life
Made in Chelsea’s Spencer Matthews was left ‘anxious and depressed’ by steroid abuse
FORMER Made in Chelsea star Spencer Matthews has opened up for the first time about his steroids shame, admitting he took pills “to look good in the shower” ahead of his I’m a Celebrity stint.
The reality star, 27, was controversially axed from the ITV reality show in November,
just three days into his jungle experience after confessing to show bosses about popping the muscle-building pills.
Spencer took a break from the spotlight for some soul-searching travels, but on Wednesday he returned to the UK and opened up to Radio 1’s Newsbeat about the furore.
He said: “It was completely out of vanity. I have been accused of trying to cheat in Australia but it didn’t even cross my mind, I just wanted to look good in the shower.
“There’s quite a large number of viewing figures and a lot of people watching and it can be quire nerve-racking knowing that you’re going to be having your body out in front of everyone.”
While Spencer insisted he was never addicted to the steroids, which he took as he trained for a charity boxing match, he feels “devastated” to have let people down.
He added: “I really regret the decision, obviously, probably one of the most costly mistakes I’ve ever made.
“I had an overwhelming sense of letting everyone down for no real reason, it wasn’t an addiction, it wasn’t an issue, so there was really no need for it.
“And also the excitement of flying out to Australia to do this amazing show, I was so happy to be there, when the reality came in that I was going home on the third day, I was just absolutely devastated.”
Spencer immediately flew back to the UK after being kicked out of the jungle, but was left “feeling anxious and depressed” over the scandal.
He continued: “For someone that doesn’t get anxious or depressed, I felt pretty anxious and depressed.
“It was a bit of a dark time.”
In contrast, Spencer looked relaxed, happy and healthy as he left the Radio 1 studios in London following his interview in a rare public sighting.
The star wore black jeans and a grey t-shirt with a black winter coat and a Burberry camouflage scarf hung round his neck.
While a pair of sunglasses masked his eyes, he gave waiting photographers a smile as he headed home.
It has been claimed Spencer was actually axed from Made in Chelsea
as opposed to him leaving of his own accord.